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Here's a little bit of a sneak peek on how I answer questions :) yeah i'm either poetic or just nonsense XD but have a good day anyways! 

xoxo,

Gia

In Search of Something Genuine

Have you ever just wanted something so bad, you would do the absolute crazy things in order to have the feel of it for yourself. Especially when we see someone having it and seeing how happy they are as their smiles spread broadly across their face and you bare eyes saw something genuine in theirs.

That was me before reality slapped my face. There is an old saying that 'It is better from afar.' which I didn't really get it when I first heard of it. But now, it brings me to ease and lessens the feeling of jealousy in me. 

I used to hold on to this theory where I could not be happy unless if I have something that what I would think would bring me happiness. So I was relentlessly trying to reach it. Sometimes things goes with the way I want them, and at other times, things don't really go as well as I would have pictured them in my head. But either ways, something prickled in me, the feeling that I thought is not the feeling what I felt in the end. I did not taste anything genuine.

When I look at pictures, I would often thought, I want to go to this place where this person goes, I want to get to know more of this person, I would like to have this or that, and the list of desires continues on. But as reality comes it's way more than my expectation (and my daydreams) it gives me the spiteful truth that some things are not as what they seem to be. And the more I hear of endless realistic scenarios from people that I thought were living in a fairytale, the more I feel both relived and numb. Relived that I can stop hoping a false reality and numb that, is there even anything genuine nowadays?

But I am not giving up, maybe this is a lifetime journey, to find something or someone that's genuine. And I am thankful for life has shown me something that was realistic, even though it hurts. So what I want to do now is to stop creating scenarios in my head. I want to be surprised with the reality that life brings and even if some things are better of looking at it from the opposite angle, there are sure of a whole lot of things (or moments) that are genuine, even from any point of view that works dimensionally. 

xoxo,

Gia

A Glimpse of Broken Perfection

Have you ever walked pass by and take a glance at a stunningly beautiful person to someone that to you, every single thing about them is flawless (because we are bewildered by their physical appearance) and you thought to yourself, i wish i was more of like that person or i wish i could be that person. But we do not know what goes through on that person's mind. Sure, maybe that person has the ideal body, the effortlessly stunning hair, flawless skin, captivating eyes, a great fashion sense, a dream boyfriend/girlfriend by their side, and everything just seems perfect when you look at that person. But beneath all of that beauty, do you know that that person might be in deep agony?

Sometimes, we feel at a certain point of depression where we strive for what other people have. It makes us blind. We're so focused on wanting something that we want to have that we forget what we already have and we are not being blessed. And funny thing is, we're so busy wanting what other people have and somewhere or maybe someone that we do not know of are secretly wanting what we have. What is this cycle? What is happiness when it seems like the thing we want the most is not as great as we thought it would? I'm sorry, maybe it's just me and my wicked mind but i'm also on the road of finding genuine happiness.

I have this theory, where God always listens to our desires, even if it's unspoken. God knows. God also grants our wants. But it comes with a price. Let's say, when we want something or to be like someone, God may gives us what what we want, but sometimes, what we want isn't necessarily the best thing for us. Who knows, when we wish to be like the other person and we pray to God to transform us into that person, maybe we don't realise that we're also unknowingly wishing to have that person's bad qualities as well. And why God let those thing happen? To teach us a valuable lesson.

Overall, be blessed with the life that God has designed for all of you and always see the good in the bad even if it is only a single dot of light in a dark landscape. There is nothing wrong with having wants and desires but please do not compare your life to someone else's. When you see someone that you want to be, see them as a motivator and do not be a copycat version of that person!

xoxo,

Gia

"You were born an original, don't die a copy."

- John Mason

Illusion

I believe every each and one of us has our own special illusive world that we generate with our own imagination. It is a special place where everything is unrivalled. If the forces above suddenly gives me a choice, a part of me just wants to drown myself in a illusive world where all of the pain that i have sealed inside actually make sense.

I fall in love with illusions more than real moments. What seems to be as it is is not what seems are in my head. I like carving things in a different prospect inside my imagination. It often confuses me up to the point where i am overwhelmed by my own thoughts.

I have come to the realisation where i hurt so deeply because of a guy is because i was not in love with him, i was in love with the illusion of him. The image of him that alters because of my own wrongdoing. There is no reason for me to be this hurt because it is not real. Even if the pain feels real, the situation isn't.

Do not fall for the illusive spell your imagination grasps.

xoxo,

Gia