Dear March

This month has been like a crazy roller coaster ride for me, at the beginning of the month, my mind was consumed with the idea of perfecting my Valentine's Day project and it was a good feeling as i met a lot of new people through handing them the love letters. 

Overall, this month wasn't that sour but i think i have learned something valuable from this month on how to control my anxiety. I'm not saying that i have fully recovered from my anxiety, but every now and then i still do pace back and forth, listening to my ipod and enter the treacherous unrealistic realm of mine. It saddens me really, to see myself in the mirror and see how broken i am when i lose contact with reality. But i am in the process of healing, i am still fighting with this and i'm not giving up. I hope i'll never give up.

I have strictly put away my ipod from me and i want to try to live day by day without daydreaming too much and live that dream that i've been dreaming of and be in peace as the way that i hope. This month, i want to discover more and go on more adventures, meet new people, be more open minded and not judge a play by it's poster; and not too draw conclusions too quickly.

Time. One of my biggest concerns is time. Sometimes i feel like the world is spinning too fast and i get so caught up with it that i do not know where i stand. I also often feel i am not spending my time efficiently. I must not waste precious time. I have to be more productive and decrease my level of concern.

I've also learned a bit about love this month, i have forbid myself from falling in love with illusions. If i do want to like someone, i have to fully know what is he like, not the recreation sculpture that i formed in my head. It's going to be hand because i am a sucker for first glances; but i have to do it. For the sake of my mental health.

Lastly, thank you February for the lessons that you have given me and March, please be kind to me. I do not want to waste any more precious tears. I want to be healed. I want to treasure the ones that i love and I want to be more appreciative of time.

xoxo,

Gia 

Worthwhile The Wait

I have learned something valuable from the times where there were no stars in my darkest skies.

When a want becomes a desire, we are willing to do almost anything to have it and feel it with our own souls, they say to have something that we've never had before, we must do something we've never done before.

Sure, at first you make a plan on how to achieve that goal, but the actual process of doing it is a whole different scenario from the original one that you've planned where there are no bumps along the way.

A wise man once told me that the road to success isn't about riding a straight path, but it is a path that is filled with pit stops to learn what we must acquire, fall into holes every now and then, but as long as you steady yourself to get back on track, everything is ok, in fact, you are already halfway of being the successful person that you dreamed of :)

Lately there are some people in life that has been rubbing me off on my bad side and it does make me furious, especially when the person that matters most in your life is throwing you all of this negativity and all you ask for is an act of sympathy. But it's ok, if i really want this, i'll keep carrying on and get back on track regardless of the anchors that tries to hold me back.

Because something worth having will not come easy and something easy is not worth having :)

Never lose hope.

Always turn on the light in your mind no matter how dark things seem to be.

There is always hope for those who ask of it.

xoxo,

Gia