Against the Common Flow

Everyone is their own individuality

One may seem alike to another

but,

a single trait or more can define them apart

Being different can often be misunderstood by most people. Being different can sometime lead us to seclusion from the common. Being different takes up a lot of bravery from the inside, and being brave is being confident with taking a road that we believe in, even though it is different from everyone else.

That road isn't going to be easy. That road isn't always gonna give us applause from other people because we choose to be daring. That road isn't always gonna smooth but, if that road is the road that you truly feel that it is best for yourself,

Then go for it. 

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That is all from me, hope you guys will enjoy this mini post about motivation and remember! Uniqueness and being genuine is very rare these days, don't let society dim your spark!

xoxo,

Gia

Back on Track

Whilst on the journey of reaching your dreams, it is never an easy road to embrace. Sometimes, i drift off from that road and i stumble, a lot. Lately I feel i've been kinda lost and it saddens me. Sometimes I let my anxiety and depression get in my way, university has just been exhausting, and also social pressure, sometimes it gets the best of me.

But for every time I feel down and sad, I always have to remind myself my goal from the start, where I want to be in the next few years or more and what I want to achieve in this life. Even though it is exhausting because you have be your own saviour, it moulds you to into becoming a stronger person.

So my goal now is to not let insignificant 'noises' get in my way of what I want to achieve, and I gotta work hard on it. Seems kinda scary but I believe I can overcome it. And I also have to start making daily plans to get my day organised and to finish off things I must do like assignments, cleaning, read my textbooks, and etc!

And until then, I am still struggling to develop myself.

xoxo,

Gia

Rise After You Fall

Hi guys! For today I want to do a somewhat inspirational post that I hope will inspire you all and can also help for those of you who have been wanting to rise from the ashes of your misery and be brave in starting a new chapter in your life.

So I have come up with several ideas that you guys can do whenever you feel sad, and always remember to rise from no matter what misery you guys are facing! :)

1. Cry it out. Letting out that weight that has been hovering and sending a pressure to your chest is better off to deal it by crying. Because once you've cried, you have acknowledge the pain and you have accepted the reality of it.

2. Talk to a friend. In life, you cannot expect for everyone to understand you like an open book if you don't tell them! Be wise and smart in choosing a friend to let your guards down, and hold on to the idea that life will always give you a friend. People will come and go but there are many trustworthy ones that are worth the love and pain.

3. Sing it out. It has been proven in a psychological observation that singing releases stress. Now I don't really have a great singing voice, I just think it's pretty ok but hey, Who cares? Just sing it out! One of my fave songs to sing are Disney songs! Ranging from A Whole New World to A Part of Your World and so many more! It really does work! I feel much more lighter and airy after I jam into my fave all time classic Disney songs

4.  Cook your own food. When we're cooking, we are focused to the food that we are making it is the perfect brain distraction! And also make sure that you're cooking healthy foods that are good and energising for your body.

5. Do something productive. For me, it's either cleaning or writing a new blog post. Even though i've been kinda MIA from blogging ever since i've been busy with the third semester of uni, I feel so happy after I post a new blog because it makes me feel i'm a step closer of reaching my dreams and I believe it is beneficial for me future. And at other times, I also like to clean my apartment and re-organise and re-decorate my living space to have a new outlook. 

6. Watch comedy films/sitcoms. For me, it would either have to be 2 Broke Girls and How I Met Your Mother, even though i've only been watching HIMYM very recently, I fell in love with Robin & Barney and the whole entire cast is just so hilarious. And i've also been a huge fan of 2BG because it is filled with sarcastic humour and every single cast in that sitcom is perfect for their role and I often find myself laughing my ass off every time I watch 2BG.

7. Drink tea. I suggest drinking green tea because not only it is good for your metabolism, but it is also good for weight control! And I also make sure that I do not fill it with sugar because it can be kinda fattening and I prefer drinking it without sugar anyways.

8. Exercise. Especially when you're angry! When you're mad at someone, don't waste your time thinking of a diabolical plan to get your revenge on that person. But let it all out by exercising! Go to the gym or take a walk or even do your own cardio workout in your living space.

9. Pray. Have faith in what you believe. I always believe that everything is not a coincidence and it is all a plan made by God. I also believe that if God brings us into a situation, God will also help us go through that situation. 

10. Read a book. I'm currently loving post-apocalypse themed book and I really do find them very entertaining and it broadens up your imaginations by challenging it into a greater extent. And when you're reading a book, when you're caught up with it, you can put your problems aside and enjoy the flow of the story.

So that is the few of the many tips I have to enlighten yourself and I hope you all will enjoy :D

xoxo,

Gia

To Be the Person I Will Become

I think everyone has definitely gone through a phase where they idolise someone and admires their achievements, their looks, their life and whatnot. As we look at ourselves in the mirror, with high hopes and dreams, we hope of becoming to like the person we want to be. For as many years as I could ever imagine, i've always wanted to be this person or that person and I was relentlessly picking out the differences between my life and theirs, and it made me much worse knowing i'll never be like them and I will never have the things that they have.

But as I got older, I now realise why all of those struggles in the past of trying to become like someone else didn't work. The universe did not grant my wish, and I am happy for that. Now I have realise that the person that I want to be is the best version of myself. I keep telling myself that it is ok to idolise someone to look up to and make them as role models, but there has to be a fine line between idolising and obsessing.

It took me years to actually figure this out but, if I do want to be the best version of myself, or let's say the person I want to become, I have to start by change. I read this amazing quote on weheartit that somewhat sounds like this,

"The only difference between the person that you are now and the person that you want to become is the things that you do." 

- Anonymous 

I think that quote really did gave me a hard slap of reality and it empowered me. I have to start step by step and even doing the littlest thing that didn't seem like they would make a big impact, but they actually do. I don't know if I have ever mentioned this on my blog but, I have anxiety issues. There are a lot of times where I wake up in the morning and for some reason, I can't relax, i'm already tensed in the morning, i'll grab my earphones and listen to music to start my daydream in hopes of entering dream world would make things better but it never did and I procrastinate on a lot of things, and then I get pissed off because I can't even do the littlest things without the feeling of worrying inside of me. This sounds stupid but I even can't relax and eat properly in the dining table when I eat by myself because i'm always panting on the inside and I end up eating and walking around my bedroom like a foolish five year old, and yes, it was that severe.

But I want to change, now I pay attention to every single thing I want to start doing just like the person I want to become will do. I first get up in the morning, take a deep breath and thank God for life, then I open the curtains and the windows, turn off the air conditioner, make my bed, stretch, and I control myself if a part of me tries to go back to my old reckless routine and I try my best to resist my obsession towards daydreaming and I put my earphones in my sister's bedroom so it will be out of reach from me. I even hold myself when I want to eat and constantly remind myself to have manners even when i'm eating alone and doing things properly.

Every now and then I do still lose myself and caught myself pacing back and forth to music but it's ok. I tell myself that it's ok because I am still in the process of recovery and I don't go hard on myself. For some it's easy to do things like brushing your teeth after waking up but it's a struggle for me, used to. But i'm in it for the long-run and I will continue doing this step by step and we'll see :) i'll definitely be making more posts about self-development in the future. 

To some, this might sound silly but we all have our own struggles that we're the only ones that comprehends the pain. Also, i'm so fed up of missing out many great moments in life due to my anxiety and depression. I want to change, and it's gonna be a new semester ahead, I want things to get better and I want to get back on track. 

So yeah, sometimes I don't really know exactly the kind person want to become but for all I know is that I want to be the kind of person that can enjoy life even if the people in it tries to bring me down, to keep doing what I love even if things aren't going well, to enjoy every moment of life even with it's imperfections, to find my passion and love what I do, to handle things more wisely, and there is so much more I could honestly write a essay about it.

I was originally gonna write the title of this post as 'To Become the Person I Want to Become' but then I realise, I will become this person because I am willing to change to be it and I will start doing it now. You can't wait for something great happen to you, you have to work hard and earn that greatness and it starts with change.

xoxo,

Gia

Self-Reflection: Boys

Since i'm on my two weeks of holiday, I spent most of my time reading books and watch endless videos on youtube (so adventurous ikr), and semester 3 is just around the corner so i'm currently planting on new positive perspectives and I seek for a fresh new start and not making the mistakes that I made in the past, but what I learned while I was sitting against the computer screen was, a lot. And one of them happens to be about the opposite sex. 

I've watched this video earlier on Youtube by Mirella Belle titled, How to Get the Boy You Like. At first I was kinda skeptic about it because one, she's super pretty so I presume it'll be easy for her to get any guy she wants, and two, i'm kinda fed up for now on boys, so i'm not gonna waste my time thinking about boys all day and i'm already a Uni student now, I have to focus on my studies, be more productive in blogging, exercising, networking, and etc.

But as I got deeper into the video, I have so much respect for her because she really discusses about the importance of having inner confidence and how to look presentable in front of your crush. She also talks about some things that really made me realise that if you're naturally a weird person, don't be ashamed of it, don't hide it, because if a guy falls in love or likes you for the person he met at the beginning of your friendship, he'll be shock to see the real person that you are if you hide your true self from him, because sooner or later, it'll come out. 

Now i'm not saying that we should be frontally show our craziness and hyper activeness in front of that guy that we like (I mean, it'll freak them out) but I think it's also a lesson for me to stay true to myself. I'm the type of person that I stumble a lot of my words when i'm in front of my crush because i'm nervous and I end up saying stupid things or laugh like a lunatic because I don;t know what to say, and i'm afraid if i don't do or say something unique, i'll be easily forgotten, and even to my own surprise, i'm actually a fairly shy person when it comes to being around my crush, and for those who knows me well, it's totally obvious.

Another thing I learned from her video is to compliment a guy, and it is in a way that we praise of the effort that he has done with his hair or maybe he has achieved something that he worked hard for, and make sure to do it in a sweet  and sincere way, not in a skanky and overly flirtatious way. Which i'm embarrass to admit it to myself that, I often make this mistake. When I get too overly excited, the words that come out from my mouth isn't what I planned on my head, and it often ends up people misunderstanding me, which I hate it a lot when it happens.

I guess I can say that i'm not the type of girl that compares myself to other girls, because I believe every girl in this world is beautiful in their own way. But, there are times when I feel like my self esteem just fell from a tall building when the guy that I like is crushing on somebody else. What I would usually do is I would ask to my close friends about what is this girl like, and I would go to Instagram or Facebook, or even Google so see what she looks like. And when i'm feeling extra sad, there are times where I look at the mirror and start comparing myself to her, and if it's at a severe point, i'll usually cry it out.

But no, I will not do that anymore, in fact the last time I compared myself to a girl that my crush likes is back then in High School, which that was a long time ago and i'm quite proud of myself. In the video, she stated that the biggest two turndowns are, when a girl compares herself with another girl, and when a girl talks bad about other girls. Which I could not agree more.

I think the one of the biggest mistakes that I often make is not going through my words when i'm talking to a guy, I mean, i'm just gonna admit that I sometimes do talk crap about other people and yes mostly it is about other girls, which I am not proud of, and I wish to change. I sometime don't really know what I want, I want to have a guy friend but i mistreat him like a girl so I would talk to that guy as is he was a girl, but on the other hand, I have a crush on this guy and I want to be comfortable around him and again, I stumble upon my words and I ended up talking about crap. 

But I want to change, I wish they would know of how much I regret saying bad things about other people while i'm talking to them. It really is not the real me. But there's no turning back, I can only move forward and learn from the many mistakes i've made. I need to learn how to talk slowly and not get too excited, and also go through my words twice or more before I actually let it out of my mouth. And one last thing, I need to quit laughing like a lunatic, I mean I don't forbid myself when i'm around my girlfriends, but I just want to turn down the volume when i'm in front of guys.

So yeah that's about it, I guess there's a couple of other things I did not go through because i'm not the kind of writer that makes a writing plan before I write (even though I should) but I just pour out any words that pops into my head and type it.

I hope you all can learn a thing or two from reading this blogpost and until then, I will keep on developing myself into a much more better person.

xoxo,

Gia

Worthwhile The Wait

I have learned something valuable from the times where there were no stars in my darkest skies.

When a want becomes a desire, we are willing to do almost anything to have it and feel it with our own souls, they say to have something that we've never had before, we must do something we've never done before.

Sure, at first you make a plan on how to achieve that goal, but the actual process of doing it is a whole different scenario from the original one that you've planned where there are no bumps along the way.

A wise man once told me that the road to success isn't about riding a straight path, but it is a path that is filled with pit stops to learn what we must acquire, fall into holes every now and then, but as long as you steady yourself to get back on track, everything is ok, in fact, you are already halfway of being the successful person that you dreamed of :)

Lately there are some people in life that has been rubbing me off on my bad side and it does make me furious, especially when the person that matters most in your life is throwing you all of this negativity and all you ask for is an act of sympathy. But it's ok, if i really want this, i'll keep carrying on and get back on track regardless of the anchors that tries to hold me back.

Because something worth having will not come easy and something easy is not worth having :)

Never lose hope.

Always turn on the light in your mind no matter how dark things seem to be.

There is always hope for those who ask of it.

xoxo,

Gia